Yesterday was my birthday, and it was a somewhat momentous one. I have now entered the uncharted territory known as my “late twenties”. That’s right, only 4 more years until I turn 30, as my mother-in-law so lovingly pointed out. TWICE. I have to admit, I tend to get a little down when another birthday rolls around. The pessimist in me comes out and thinks about all the things I haven’t yet accomplished; the fact that motherhood is right around the corner and I don’t feel prepared; that I haven’t yet mastered the perfect key lime pie or how to keep my jeans from bunching out of my knee high boots. I get a bit nervous that another year has come and gone, yet I don’t feel like I’m in the place I thought I would be.
Then something wonderful happens every year, and I always fail to see it coming. I live in the moment. I put a pin in my downer thoughts and realize that my world is pretty fantastic the way it is. My wonderful husband orchestrated a birthday party last night that included good food, good friends, and plenty of wine and Cranium/Wii playing. I was surrounded by my best friends in Charlotte and I couldn’t help but feel incredibly lucky. Sure, my oldest friends and family weren’t present, but the life we’ve made and the friends we’ve cultivated in our few short years in Charlotte is enough to make me feel incredibly blessed. Blessed that I have great people in my life to share my stories with. Blessed that I have a thoughtful husband who loves me despite my birthday funks and temper tantrums (yes, I’m five years old). Blessed that I have my health, my home and all of the other things we tend to take for granted every day. Oh, and blessed that we have the skills to seat 12 people for a sit down dinner in our teeny tiny living room.
So maybe I haven’t mastered the things I thought I would have by 26. Maybe I still feel (and look) like I’m 16 and not old enough to have things like a mortgage and a 401k. But I think I can get on board with that. I plan to take my 26th year by the reigns and plow through my twenties with conviction and gaiety. I’ll take the time to appreciate the things I have and realize that I don’t have to solve all of the world’s problems just yet. I’ll take more pictures and spend more time with my loved ones. I’ll live in the now, try new things and deal with the fears of my future when the time comes. Oh, and I’ll share more pictures of Charlie. Because who couldn’t enjoy life with this little pooch around?